Poetry: Always Inside My Head

Thirteen years later,
inside my head,
is a horrific reminder,
of where my life used to be.

Feelings of bitterness,
Abuse and recklessness,
memories of my past,
haunt me like a ghost.
Memories that stalk me,
taunt me.
Always inside my head.

Being thrown against lockers,
being beat up.
Horrific rumors about being dangerous.
My reputation stolen from me.
Always inside my head.

The name calling,
the teasing,
set off an alarm inside me.
I was overwhelmed with pain.

I look at the scars on my arms,
the memories of what led to the scars.
These scars remind me of what was my release,
my outlet,
my only love.